This is my OctOBER

F'king day ever...

It's friday and it supposedly to be relax and nice day. Yet it was not. I been busy for the whole morning. Im trying to get my work done and been rushing with all i can to get everything ready and complete. But, i failed... Kinda depressed! Even though my stomach pain like hell, my back cause me suffer that much, i don't even bother on it :'( *I hate pms during my working time*

Frustrating is all i get from time to time...

Lack of determination.
Lack of strong mentality.
Sighs.. *Wondering whether i can cope with it and get over with it soon*
The same question keep pestering my mind:" Am i suppose to leave now and look for better opportunity?" or "Should i continue with what deserve to?"

The night... - bbq steamboat buffet -

I can't really enjoys and have fun. I was trying so hard to hide it. Then only i realise it is hard and tough to be act as normal when you're really not. Burst into tears when home... At the moment, there is no one for me to turn to. I don't know who can i find for that minute. Previously the one who is always there for me no longer appear. I know i couldn't find him anymore when i have something to tell.

standing at the crossroads

it is so hazy

and i cant see the light

lost in my way...

Put a smile on face :)

I had the worst feeling today...
All the troublesome conquer my mind badly
I don't wanna think about it
yet i just cant get rid of it from my mind..
WHat the HELL man...
I really don't know what is actually in his mind
& how i gonna face him
Please don't fool me again and again..
I can't resist

I will smiles
whenever i can
wherever i go....
EVerything gonna be alright ~

10.10.10

The day is so blue without you...

You'll never know how much i wish to have your companion. I know i had disqualified to voice out my wants neither to request anything. I can't expect anything again... never and never...

I still remember the day of 09.09.09. It had been a nice and wonderful day as i have them together with me. Buddies who are being with me in my 3 years degree life :) *appreciated them alot* imissyouguys...

Today is 10.10.10 and i feel so moody. The feeling of being left alone is so damn bitter.

when the wound had been dig out again,

all the pressure and burden of pain push me down

hardly to breath...

i can't sense you in the air surrounded me again...

OCTober rOCK ♥

There are plenty of troubles happened on me during this period. I'm really sick of it. Will the coming month bring me luck and everything gonna be smoothly?

The day he walked away, i being silent and left everything to myself. I put all the blame on myself and try to be good. I guess l had learned a lesson from him and also others. Im glad and appreciated something unexpected happen since two weeks ago. I dare not to request or question anything even though i wish to know. Im always wondering... Yet i will accept all the fact. A GAME is just a GAME. When it started, it will continue till it come to the time of GAME OVER.

*Are there any memories that can be delete permanently?*
*what does it means when you said you can't delete me from your mind?*
*and where were you when i need you the most at crucial period?*
*do you actually look into my eyes, put me in mind?*
*Stop thinking nonsense, TANYIQIAN!!!*

A real working life
Being in the real working life is not as fun as i thought. First day of working, it is nice to meet and know so many people there. However, everything is so new to me. I felt so strange. EVeryone are there for me, all friends and family are giving full support to me. I really don't wish to disappointed them. I got no confident to cope with it yet i must force myself to adapt and get over on it. *support & hugs are all i long for*

Audit really my cup of tea?
I hope i can find out the answer in real soon... perhaps after 3 months!

My ♥ midnight blue
A BIG SHOCKED to myself and everyone. I bang my car to the cement due to my careless. At that point of time, I was shocked until i dont know what to do. I took my phone and gave a call to my dad. My new car got serious damage :( (inside & outside). I really feel very heartache when i saw it. This really cause me fear to drive. argh.. why am i being so careless and panic..
From this incident, i know that everyone around me really care and sayang me alot. I appreciated it. The question that all of you asked me was in my mind. THE FIRST response that everyone gave is "are you hurt? are you injured?" Thanks ppl... im fine!

Count down one month - CHAPTER 22 new working life
Im excited that having a month of waiting period. LOL... *making alot of wish*
Can i have a special one? Will my previous wish accomplish in this year?
Wondering...