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我记得...
我曾说过，当哪一天，我把头发剪短了，那一刻就会是我放下他的时刻！

从相遇到相知，
从短发到长发，
这段日子走来...
虽然幸福中隐藏苦涩
含笑中带有泪水
却已将回忆录
由空白演变成色彩，
是时候为它划上一个句点。

答应自己，

我会好好过

明天会比昨天更美好

新的IMAGE， 新的开始！

无言

回到过去的一个月，快乐地，伤心地，生气地，酸的、甜的、苦的、辣的，百般的滋味都尝尽。这样的滋味总是会令人又爱又恨。我很庆幸可以有这么一个机会与她们一起工作，同时也在工作上找到娱乐和开心。好景不长，简单的快乐总是无法持续下去，我想我们再也没有机会像之前那样了。

付出的努力，献出的心血，不但没有被肯定，反而被糟蹋，得不到的安慰，很辛酸，心真的累了！到底我做错了什么？我该怎么走下去？这个问题好沉重。

我想放弃了

累了
我想在这里放下
所有回忆的包袱

倦了
我想停止这一切
不想再次与你扯上任何关系

烦了
我想念多一刻的宁静
让我静一静

厌了
我想离开你的世界
因为那不属于我

难过

当你说你要走
我留不住你
也只能望着你的背影
渐渐的在黑暗中消失

心不再痛了
虽然它被刺伤，缺口中陷了个洞，
眼泪轻轻滑落，
滴在伤口上，
冰冻了它...

难过的心情
不断的涌现，
仿佛喘不过气

可以让我从人群中消失吗？
可以让这样的感觉幻灭吗？
我累了

对不起，
我没想像中的坚强！

不想再难过...

如果有一天
我离你遥远
不能再和你相约
你是否会发觉我已经说再见？

回不去的从前，
我不想回头看，
沉重的回忆，
就让它留在过去。

IMY

The memory of those days being with you were keep flashing through my mind...

It's been a year...

but,

everything had changed!

I miss you so badly. I wish to hear you call me dear once again. Im getting even more hurt than before, i felt sad & depress without you being my side. I don't understand urs feeling as well as mine. I just can't stop myself to care of you and treat you good. argh... Im just being the way of hurting myself more and more.

I still care of you... Do you really care me like before?

tell me what should i do... IM LOST :(

babe, IMY!

nonsense

Looking back the days, I never know it would make me cried...

All the happiness & love disappear out of the sudden!
I wonder why you gave me that much and at the end, you took away everything from me.
You pull me out from darkness and then you turn my sky into grey.
You teach me how to breathe, but you don't give me oxygen.
You stick back my heart yet you tore it apart.

我很难过，

你知道吗？

为什么，

你要这样伤害我？

你不知道的事

她的难受，
你感觉不到

她在哭泣，
你听不到

她的付出，
你看不见

她的一切
你不在乎

你的世界，
没有她的存在

她依然没有放弃你

虽然
这一切的一切
很沉重，
背负着伤痕，
难过得好累，
还有无法诉说的痛与苦，
但为了你
她愿意承受这一切！

失望

早已习惯，
你
一次又一次的
伤害

早已习惯，
你
一次又一次的
忽冷忽热

早已习惯，
你
一次又一次的
利用我

早已习惯，
你
一次又一次的
自私

早已习惯
让
自己沉浸在
一层又一层的
谎言中

眼泪麻醉不了伤痛
笑容催眠不了沮丧
好想好好走下去
却连一步都无法迈进

我累了。。。

这个游戏，
我玩不起，
我投降了。

The celebration for last day of 21 years old

09 - 11 - 2010
I had a small yet special celebration for my coming 22 years old birthday!!
Although it is not a luxury celebration,
im satisfied with it :)
because i have you with me... *seriously im so damn grateful*
the most disappointing part is where i don't hv the chance to blow candles, make a wish & cut my cake.
i have a nice & enjoying night ~
This is my first time i celebrate the day before my birthday
This is the first time there is someone beside me to greet me happy birthday when it hits 12am on my day...
Thanks for everything ~

our dinner on that day

the so called 'birthday cake'
wonder to light up the candle for it

Am i deserve ur love & ur care?

♥ the first present i received ♥

kinda surprised that u prepare present for me :p


i treasure it ♥

its the time for it...

回不去的从前

如果我的消失，
会让你着急，
哪怕只是一点点，
我也会选择
离开你的世界
永远不再出现
我怀念的
是当初你对我的那份关怀，
我向往的
是以往与你同在的那一刻
我爱着的
是回忆里的那个你

This is my OctOBER

F'king day ever...

It's friday and it supposedly to be relax and nice day. Yet it was not. I been busy for the whole morning. Im trying to get my work done and been rushing with all i can to get everything ready and complete. But, i failed... Kinda depressed! Even though my stomach pain like hell, my back cause me suffer that much, i don't even bother on it :'( *I hate pms during my working time*

Frustrating is all i get from time to time...

Lack of determination.
Lack of strong mentality.
Sighs.. *Wondering whether i can cope with it and get over with it soon*
The same question keep pestering my mind:" Am i suppose to leave now and look for better opportunity?" or "Should i continue with what deserve to?"

The night... - bbq steamboat buffet -

I can't really enjoys and have fun. I was trying so hard to hide it. Then only i realise it is hard and tough to be act as normal when you're really not. Burst into tears when home... At the moment, there is no one for me to turn to. I don't know who can i find for that minute. Previously the one who is always there for me no longer appear. I know i couldn't find him anymore when i have something to tell.

standing at the crossroads

it is so hazy

and i cant see the light

lost in my way...

Put a smile on face :)

I had the worst feeling today...
All the troublesome conquer my mind badly
I don't wanna think about it
yet i just cant get rid of it from my mind..
WHat the HELL man...
I really don't know what is actually in his mind
& how i gonna face him
Please don't fool me again and again..
I can't resist

I will smiles
whenever i can
wherever i go....
EVerything gonna be alright ~

10.10.10

The day is so blue without you...

You'll never know how much i wish to have your companion. I know i had disqualified to voice out my wants neither to request anything. I can't expect anything again... never and never...

I still remember the day of 09.09.09. It had been a nice and wonderful day as i have them together with me. Buddies who are being with me in my 3 years degree life :) *appreciated them alot* imissyouguys...

Today is 10.10.10 and i feel so moody. The feeling of being left alone is so damn bitter.

when the wound had been dig out again,

all the pressure and burden of pain push me down

hardly to breath...

i can't sense you in the air surrounded me again...