我努力的

让自己好起来

反省

问题总是出现在我身上
事情总是重复的再发生

我需要反省
我需要改变
我需要学习
我需要努力
我需要坚强
我需要勇气
我需要放手
我需要放开
我需要开心
我需要支持
我需要强心剂

往后的日子
我会好好过
不让你再失望
不让你再对我心灰
不让你再为我而烦恼

blur yet awake

I ENJOY DRINKING :)

I need it

to free myself

from

MIND TORTURING

tipsy @_@

enjoy life :)

6 - 9 - 2010
Tea session again with my bro + buddy. Had a nice breakfast :) Feel great to have listener & companion.

7 - 9 - 2010
Nice dinner with 3 smart guys. I enjoys the dinner and also great that bak & aaron came to find me. Appreciated alot ~

8 - 9 - 2010
Dinner @ jo jo, SS15. Later on, went to snowflakes. First time i went there. I like the pearl milk tea and the green tea muachi :)

9 - 9 - 2010
meet up with babe gen & loong. Bak kut teh as lunch. I just had this a week ago. After lunch, we head to sunway pyramid for movie. While waiting for movie time, chill @ MCD and alot of chit chat. Movie of the day - GROWN UP! Even though its funny, i just can't laugh from the bottom of my heart. We had our dinner @ BBQ PLAza.
Have a nice night walk at KL bukit bintang area... Just addicted to the atmostphere there. how nice is it if i can have a drink there :p I want night life pls...

10 - 9 - 2010
Family day - went KLCC with family as they are keen to visit the book fest which im not interested at all. Just a companion for them, and i follow. At first, plan to have a walk in Suria KLCC. But im so headache with the crowded, so i decided to sit @ starbucks with my phone & magazine. Thanks Aaron kor kor that he left his mummy and come to meet me! I feel better after have a talk with him. Really feel grateful to have a kor kor who care of me. I really don't wish to lose it in someday. I hope it won't happen in my life.

Night session - First time went to Sherperdoo. First time tried the beer name Kilkenny. First time drive after a glass of beer. argh ~ i wanna drink again :)

11 - 9 - 2010
Went bak kut teh again for lunch :p but this time is different shop. First time i tried this.. not bad.. Another kor kor who care of me :)

12 - 9 - 2010
Have brunch with my two ♥ sisters @ setia alam. Later on, tea session @ starbucks! My beloved green tea blended again :) Can't stop from drinking it. truly addicted :p

I decided not to hide anymore and tell the truth. Im glad that she didn't scold me and support me, comfort me, care me all the way. I feel so nice to have them with me. I enjoys the moments, i wish the time never move and it stop here, so that we can be stay longer together.

DInner time @ Pasta Zamai, Empire Gallery. Oh, its my first time i been there :) FAmily dinner tonight!! THE PASTA is NiCe.. but i still prefer SushI ZAMAI

Movie time with family - CAt & DOG. Fulfil my little sis's want as she like cat & dog so much. lol.. Short length of movie and i feel so so only.

i had full outing for whole week

yet i still feeling lack of something

my days are so imperfect...

Speechless

It's a complicated feeling I had now. I don't know how to tell and its hard to put it in words. This feeling cause me even more suffer. I hate this. I wonder what actually i want now. argh.. feeling so lost! I can't say anything now. The moment the decision was made, i should have expected this to be happen but i didn't...

I don't wish to bring trouble to people around me yet i keep doing so. Why can't i become stronger, why can't i cope with it myself... Depress :/

I don't have any idea what can i do now. SOmetimes i just feel like dump everything and leave here...

sorry for the emo post

i didn't mean to ~

sighs...

该怎么说爱？

当心渐渐增加重量

我该怎么割舍？

他给了我勇气说爱

却没教我如何放弃

当他选择离开时

却偏偏选择了

最残忍的方式

他漠视了

对我的伤害！

我只不过是个路人

原来我不配
停留在你的生活中

为何要让我拥有
却要再次让我失去呢？
那我宁可从未拥有过！

也许过程比结局重要，

但我却负荷不起失去的伤害。

他把我扶起，

累了，就把我狠狠的甩开，

然后离我而去。

再次跌的伤是否有痊愈的机会？

我不奢望他会再次回头看我，

也不奢望他会留恋、回忆什么

只希望他不会再轻易的伤害其他人

有我一个承受就够了

别伤害她人了，好吗？

New Chapter

Chapter 22: It's time to enjoy now. Work hard and PLAY even harder ~

For all these that happened, I accepted the fact. I'll accept everything that given to me. I don't give a damn... I just believe in karma. What i suffer now, it wont last forever. What you enjoying now, if u don't appreciate then it wont last. Im kind to people, but everyone is trying to fool me around. I swear it will no longer happen. Im not deserve to be hurt like that.

Life is too short to be sad and hurt. Even though the pain that i suffer is tough, i will bear with it. Even though im not standing, i will enjoy being in hell. Don't try to push me down as you'll never know what will happen if u do so.

Start with new chapter - It should be more enjoyable, fun and happiness. I will play hard work hard and drink harder. This is life babe :)

qian ♥ in chapter 22