Speechless

It's a complicated feeling I had now. I don't know how to tell and its hard to put it in words. This feeling cause me even more suffer. I hate this. I wonder what actually i want now. argh.. feeling so lost! I can't say anything now. The moment the decision was made, i should have expected this to be happen but i didn't...

I don't wish to bring trouble to people around me yet i keep doing so. Why can't i become stronger, why can't i cope with it myself... Depress :/

I don't have any idea what can i do now. SOmetimes i just feel like dump everything and leave here...

sorry for the emo post

i didn't mean to ~

sighs...